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Ever had that really cool concept that you just couldn't do because you lacked the necessary tools to do it. Well that feeling's becoming more and more frequent to me and and having lost something I had my laptop rendering for the past two days just set me off. As if it wasn't bad enough that it was meant to be an Easter themed artwork that would have already been a few days late, now I feel like I'm better off scrapping it altogether, or just putting it aside for next year when I'm sure I'm not going to care about it anymore anyway
There's a good reason why I don't submit new art nearly as often as I used to, or say yes to many commission offers anymore. Not much else in my life has changed other than me feeling increasingly bored and tired with trying to do it. And it's not because of a lack of ideas, since I come up with them daily. It's because my workload is being carried by the technological equivalent of a mule with a busted leg. This "trying to make huge epic digital art of the future using yesterday's outdated hardware" thing has worn my motivation down and killed any joy it used to have for me when my expectations were small enough for my lack of top-tier tools to really be an issue. Creating anything now always feels like such a chore, usually these days I only muster up enough obligation to continue with my annual series for certain days of the year so I don't have any gaps in my track record but in between those I find myself spending most of my time doing nothing because it's a lot less rage-inducing than sitting through a hundred program crashes just to get one measly artwork out of month's worth of suffering for it. I had ideas for new "series" I wanted to start out and maybe even a new calendar too to hopefully breath some fresh interest into the medium, ideas I know would have done well here and probably helped bring me back to the spotlight which I feel I've not been able to get back to in a long while. But I then realize I'd just be trying to tunnel out of prison with a disposable plastic spoon
Think next year I might have to consider some much needed upgrades if I'm going to have any hope of saving my passion for this stuff at all, but I can't afford that shit now so the renaissance of priteeboy will have to be postponed as I look forward to another year where I do as little as possible for the sake of my own sanity, since until I can get my hands on something more up to speed with my own growth and ideas then I can't say I'm really enjoying this much and have even crossed that line where I enjoy coming here to look at other people's art more than contributing my own, it's just a much easier way to get me dA fix
There's a good reason why I don't submit new art nearly as often as I used to, or say yes to many commission offers anymore. Not much else in my life has changed other than me feeling increasingly bored and tired with trying to do it. And it's not because of a lack of ideas, since I come up with them daily. It's because my workload is being carried by the technological equivalent of a mule with a busted leg. This "trying to make huge epic digital art of the future using yesterday's outdated hardware" thing has worn my motivation down and killed any joy it used to have for me when my expectations were small enough for my lack of top-tier tools to really be an issue. Creating anything now always feels like such a chore, usually these days I only muster up enough obligation to continue with my annual series for certain days of the year so I don't have any gaps in my track record but in between those I find myself spending most of my time doing nothing because it's a lot less rage-inducing than sitting through a hundred program crashes just to get one measly artwork out of month's worth of suffering for it. I had ideas for new "series" I wanted to start out and maybe even a new calendar too to hopefully breath some fresh interest into the medium, ideas I know would have done well here and probably helped bring me back to the spotlight which I feel I've not been able to get back to in a long while. But I then realize I'd just be trying to tunnel out of prison with a disposable plastic spoon
Think next year I might have to consider some much needed upgrades if I'm going to have any hope of saving my passion for this stuff at all, but I can't afford that shit now so the renaissance of priteeboy will have to be postponed as I look forward to another year where I do as little as possible for the sake of my own sanity, since until I can get my hands on something more up to speed with my own growth and ideas then I can't say I'm really enjoying this much and have even crossed that line where I enjoy coming here to look at other people's art more than contributing my own, it's just a much easier way to get me dA fix
Well I Didn't Win This Time..
But a Daily deviation is a pretty solid runner up prize :trophy:
Thankyou art (https://www.deviantart.com/art) for featuring it, and for providing this string of contests with very interesting themes over the past few months. I'm not in any of the current ones, character design isn't a strong point of mine, but it'll be interesting to see who wins, and what themes might be selected for upcoming contests if any!
I've been slipping in and out of activity for some time and these contests motivating me to put stuff aside to draw something again have probably been a good influence for me. Too busy with work and other crap I'd gladly cut out of my life if I won the lottery
Son of a Beach!
After being elected as one of many fine finalists in the recent Devious Desktops: Warm Vibes competition I had my fingers crossed over the past week thinking about nothing other than what the results would be. This was the first contest I've heard about in ages I was actually interested in theme-wise and one that was also open to all members around the world so I jumped on it right away!
It paid off as I won one of the three winning positions! :excited: It's been years since I won anything here, and even those were smaller scale contests held by individual users or groups. I'm certain this is the first time I ever placed in one of the big on
Switchi'n It Up
So I've pretty much disappeared without an explanation, drip-feeding some time on here into the forums but not much else on the artistic front. Totally out of character for me whose been persistently active on here since I began. But then again out of character probably describes how I feel. Not necessarily in a "bad" way, but in a way that I feel like my priorities and personality are changing after some realizations about many things this year. In some ways it's been a good thing, I feel myself actually having a desire to start doing a little more than sit in front of a computer all day. Wanting friends, company and activity in my life more
A Sexy Birthday
Wow wow I'm 30 now :faint: I've been having mixed feelings about it for months, on one hand I feel pretty bummed out that my 20's are over forever now which seems to be the only age demographic the world still considers fun and cool. On the other hand it has given me a little kick in the bum when it comes to trying to motivate myself to actually be be more fun and cool, since I spent a lot of the past ten years tirelessly working away on my hobbies, most noticeably my art. It's paid off in many ways and kept me busy during a time I didn't really have much else going on, and I definitely want to keep at it. Yet I want to start living a little
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I think every artist experiences a lack of passion and energy for their work at some point in their life, and this is probably honestly the most I've ever sen you looking so down about the current state of your creativity and pursuits. No one can really sugarcoat it, since it all lies up to you and how you personally feel about keeping it going. You may not think you deserve a break, but yeah man...what else exactly is going to refuel your enthusiasm for it other than taking an official sabbatical from it? Do what needs to be done to rediscover your love for it, and as far as the technical side of it...well I'm not really all that knowledgeable about that side myself so I do wish you best of luck with it.
By the way, in case it wasn't already noticeable, this is Bowser81889, just on an alternative account at the moment. Been locked out of my main one for half a month so I'm currently trying to come up with a fix. Just a heads-up since I rarely ever comment on artwork or journals using this account, haha.
By the way, in case it wasn't already noticeable, this is Bowser81889, just on an alternative account at the moment. Been locked out of my main one for half a month so I'm currently trying to come up with a fix. Just a heads-up since I rarely ever comment on artwork or journals using this account, haha.